to lost loves and those who grieve

yesterday he held her close to his heart

and whispered the mysteries of the universe

in her ear

now each day lasts at least one hundred years

and she waits by the fire listening for his song

to start again

she only hears the cooing of the doves

and the panting heavy breath of the dog

or is it her own

but she knows if she keeps listening

she will hear his voice deep inside

close to her heart

until then she lies in the dark at night

and weaves peacock feathers

in her hair

(for Toni)

handling life

looking for light

it’s just over there

but can’t seem to

get a handle on it

climbing upward

seems the most obvious

but slippery and difficult

sliding or falling down

is what I do best

maybe there is light

at the bottom of the abyss

buddha in the rose garden

Last time I wrote with structure, but today my head is spinning out of control with thoughts, too many to focus. Lately I've noticed this seemingly negative overactivity in my mind making me feel like I'm in a fog, forgetful, anxious, stressed, inability to be effective at anything...so I've decided to spit out all those thoughts in my head in a random fashion...maybe it will help clear things up a bit or maybe it will just pass the time until I can think and function again. At least it's random, I feel more comfortable there...

camera...umbrella...menu

recipes...vitamins...hallelujah

need to sign...internet...White House...fingernail polish

alias...waterbottle...broken pipes...spirit on the water

Gordon...shopping carts...space cowboys

butter...dust bunnies...children...brain damage

safe chair...refrigerator...FDR...heavily padded headboards

groundhog day...everything but the kitchen

sink...dreams...Wednesday night

take notice...Willy Loman...lost dreams...drums

chubby babies...eyelashes...car keys...slamming

doors....honey...panic...trains...JFK...selling

pumps...variations...taxes...upside down desks

pants...chocolate brown...found dreams...rust

and decay...treasure hunting...silence

snowmen...Curious George...om padma...film...tissues

penguins...polka dots...kale...endless winter

cat in the hat...blooming cactus...the wrestler

looking for retreat...